AIMAN ZAMRI

Artist Statement

Making an artwork is a door way for me to let my anger and buried feelings. It has always been a healing process in order to refrain myself from thinking about the things that bothers me most of the time. This body of works reflects my anger about the confidence that I have lost. It has been affected by my childhood experiences and inspires me to express my thoughts regarding it, which is due to the fear of showing my personality. Getting judged for my feminine side of personality by most people has always been hard for me to cope with in daily basis especially, when I start a conversation with strangers. Since my childhood, I was a very talkative kid and was always confident in everything that I am. Everything was sincere. I could speak to anyone without thinking of it twice. I could be the loudest person among crowds though my interests would be different from them. I was never conscious about how odd my personality can be to anyone until a few people tease me about it. Then, more of them do, which slowly affects my thoughts as a child. This causes me to try to act certain ways that could at least reach someone else’s standard about how a guy should act and talk and walk and just be. The act has always been the hardest thing to uphold.